you have one right as a young: be prepared to have your time misused.. it's universal~ that's called the harsh reality.. what the fuck..

If I am older, I surely wouldn't mind doing the mechanical works myself..... let the young create..... that's the main thing.....

What is THAT THING to do in an experimental study of language? I don't want to be lost among a group that I am still not entirely in yet. And then, I have to remember I have my own personal goals too.

It is silly to wait for the group to touch on your own interests.. if you are interested in something, just read about that in leisure time.. and there should be plenty of leisure time.. just don't buy that concept 7 x 24 so soon!! perhaps it means something else!!

Okay, so I will buy the concept 7 x 8 instead. Outside of this, the time is mine!! As much as I am impressed with the synergy of the group, and as much as I treasure this opportunity to be saved from perpetual petrification in an office setting, it's time to see above the whole picture.

Beware when the devil strikes! Be critical.

it can be quite foolish to try to overcome one's hopeless stupidity..
why don't just admit that I am stupid and live a stupid life??
should getting closer to your ideal self be really of such a high priority??

perhaps, just perhaps,
the wisest thing to do.. is to accept who you are.. and be content~~!!

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4th group meeting so far.. confidence's building up.. a good sign..
thanks a lot for such a nice environment to be in..
it can be stressful at times.. but I did enjoy the interactions..
and of course, those spirit-enhancing speech and stories~~

yet.. how come that after the group meeting did I develop those sorts of sentimentality above??
Jesus!! gotta improve fast!!
merely the thought of this is enough of a burden.....

Neuroscience -- 百花齊放 vs 眾聲喧嘩